Letter to my ex.

When I turned 15, I thought I'd experienced a lot, but the reality was completely different. I was missing experiences and dreams to fulfill. I've always been the type of person who wants to take on the whole world in one bite, so I'm always restless.
Many people told me to slow down, since everything that's supposed to happen to us will happen in due time. Of course! I never listened.
I lived day after day as if it were a new adventure. I've always been a very open person and I love meeting people, but not in a superficial way. I liked hearing their stories, learning about their fears and dreams. However, what I liked most was when they trusted me and showed me that side that isn't shown to everyone: the real thing.
I met you at your house at a party. When I saw you, I was dying to exchange at least two words with you. The funniest thing was that neither of us had the slightest idea what was going to happen after those two words. And how could we, when we were barely 15?
When you approached me and we began a conversation that seemed endless, the chemistry could be felt from miles away, and all we wanted was to continue getting to know each other. I remember you telling me a secret that had been tormenting you for a long time, and that's when I saw you... when I truly saw you vulnerable and honest, in front of someone you felt supported by. Even though we had only just met, we both felt complete and happy at that moment.
As time went by, we grew apart due to life's events. Nothing was in our hands. No matter how much we tried to change them, we couldn't, because that was the way life went, and so you followed your path, and I followed mine.
For 6 years I knew very little about you, during meals and meetings I heard people mention you and I was dying to find you, but we both knew that for some reason, we had seen each other very little during those years and although the feeling was always there, we were aware that it was not our time and that each of us had to live certain experiences to grow.
My 21st birthday was approaching, and I decided to get all my friends together to celebrate. One of the advantages we have is that we share the same friends, so it was only natural that someone would invite you. And so it was. You arrived, and I couldn't stop smiling like a little girl. I couldn't believe you were there after so long, and I greeted you with a big hug, one of those that makes you feel at home.
You were coming back from Oxford, and listening to your stories was all I wanted that day. I remember we spent hours talking, and the feeling didn't go away. Days passed, and we spent more and more time together. At first, it was with excuses like returning your sweater, the one you lent me six years ago, but later, we didn't need to say anything, and we just spent the days and nights together.
I must admit that in the years we were together, you taught me things no one else had achieved. You taught me to live without rushing and to enjoy every moment. I understood that I didn't need to take on the world and that I still had a lot to live and learn. We always wanted to be the best versions of ourselves, to never let each other down. However, things don't always turn out the way we wanted.
Even though we're no longer together as a couple, we both learned that the love we have for each other will last forever, and that for the time being, it was a good decision to be friends with each other, because we were never friends in name only, but in feelings. We often think that when a relationship ends, feelings fade, but in reality, they transform and are not lost.
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